Pillow Thoughts Page 6

  I’ve been lost in cities

  and torn apart.

  I’ve been distracted, burning bright

  with reckless reactions.

  But please believe me when I say

  you are the best decision

  I have ever made.

  The small things still give me butterflies. Like the way you say I love you without even saying it. When you call me to let me know you are bringing the wine for dinner. When I am half asleep in the early morning and you pull the covers over my shoulders as you leave for work. When I shower and I notice you have placed all your little shampoos on my shelf. There are pieces of you all around my house, your clothes in my drawer, your empty coffee cups on my desk and your jewelry on the table. I have always thought that love was about big moments, that I had to endure pain because love was worth it. Yet here you are, and our love is just simple, pure, a love that I want for the rest of our lives.

  Looking for Ice Cream

  We were in the grocery store. You wanted ice cream even though it was cold out. You couldn’t decide which flavour and I was teasing you about being so indecisive sometimes. I suggested we just buy every flavour in the store and you laughed. It was the kind of laugh I could listen to for the rest of my life. You said I was silly and you kissed me, pressed against me so I could feel how cold the tip of your nose was. You were only in sweats, hair so messy from being in bed all afternoon. And in that moment I knew I loved you more than anyone else I had ever loved. In that moment I knew you were my once in a lifetime. And yet all we were doing was looking for ice cream.